"Its better to have loved and lost..than to never have loved at all"

Why does love happen?? Always for a reason..Sometimes, its the closeness that you enjoy..sometimes its the other person's company...sometimes..its all about how they make you feel..Sometimes..you just are attracted..sometimes..their looks...

But there is always one time..when its without a reason..they may not be that c;lose to you..you might not really enjoy their their company..they might make you feel bad..at times too...and they might not look like Salman Khan..

but you love them...just for who they are..no strings attached..no expectations..no returns...no gain..no loss...just a feeling..

a feeling that stays..no matter how much you try to push it to the back of your mind..it stays...in the subconscious...

You might not even remember why you love them..you just do..all you know is your heart flutters when you see them..and your lips turn into a big smile...when you think about them...and talking about them..makes you feel on the top of the world..

you tell their story to the world..keeping them anonymous...coz you are afraid of letting that feeling go...

Have you felt it??I have..its amazing..
if you havent..open your heart to this possibility...

"Its better to have loved and lost..than to never have loved at all"

XoXo

Nashee!

The Lost Pride.

"Pride"...
Its the one thing that girls are most proud of..They need to KNOW, that they have the best in the world.
The Best shoes...
The Best dress...
The Best Jwellery..
The Best Friend...
And...
The Best Boyfriend/ Husband..

I had that pride once.. I had the best of everything..and flaunted everything with the confidence that could be only seen in a newly wed bride.

But..I managed to ruin everything..in just one go...i lost everything..My best friend..my love..my pride..

May be i deserved it..may be I didnt..

All I know is..I have lost my PRIDE forever!

XoXo
Nashee

The perfect goodbye!

Dear dairy
It was a beautiful day today. Today i realised how far i came from that fustrating life. I saw him today..
he looked handsome as always. I know u will say i am supposed to forget him and believe after today.. i am done. I got my perfect closure.
I still remember the day when he promised me that he will call me everyday. Its been months and today when i saw him.. i felt nothing. Not even hate...
infact diary I pity him... u should have seen the look on his face... he was ashamed... and i did something i thaught i wont be able to do...
i extended my hands for a handshake..  and when he took them he was embarassed. Before he could say anything i turned away. Its was a perfect goodbye diary. Perfect

XoXo
Ash

Causing Self- Destruction

In all my life, and all my dumb crushes and infactuations and even serious love..you were the one I fell in love with again and again.

And everytym..it was deeper and deeper.. i should have known that it was dangerous grounds..i should have been prepared..

There was a red signal, the day you kissed me exactly like I wanted to be kissed...
and another one, the day you saved me from those creeps..
and another one, the day you held my hand and promised that my dreams were gonna come true.
And another one, the day you juz held me in your arms..

There are so many..so many moments, that I should have noticed. I should have backed down...but I let my guard down..and you kept on penetrating my heart..untill.....

Untill....you destroyed me!

XoXo
Nashee!

Try Try Until You Succeed!

Career is one of the most important thing of our life...
how does it feel to sit in a corner crying on our failed career?
To curse god for making life misrable? 
To listen all kinds of crap from family and friends? 

Here is what i learnt from a very well known faliure...
when you fail... cry!... cry for a week.. a month...a year...
but...when you are done...get up...find out what made you loose...

when someone reminds you of your failure... 
listen... 
understand.. 
evolve... 
rise the "beast" in you..
quench your thirst for revenge of this humilation. 
Be patient... 
talk to god.. 
fight with him...
cry... 
but believe he is listening.. 
u aint just talking to yourself in an empty room... he is up there somewhere listening your everyword.. 
dont let set backs calm your beast down... 
do not let a tear fall when someone makes you feel weak.. tear makes you feel light... 

then one day when you get exactly what you want... calm your beast down... and smile cheerfully to all those people who once humilated you... 
your  smile is your revenge. 

And if you haven't got what you wanted... believe this... 

"after night... day certainly comes"

You will WIN.

XoXo
Ash

What is Love

She asked, "what is love?"

"Its a feeling" He said.

It was a common answer...huh!

Her friends wondered why her dates dont last for more than a week..and she did'nt knew how to answer. She had this weird thing about "His" notion of Love.

And once again..on a regular day...with regular cup of coffee..regular work... cursing job and life..  but....

.....A NEW Date..handsome... cute.. good looking..comfort ...connection...and two monthsof dating..her longest ever...and then one day....it took all her strength to ask him... "what is love?"...he looked at her with a "what is this stupid question" look... but then he did something... something that made her realise this is it.. its here she stops... he hugged her and whispered "This fear that you had while asking this question..that is Love"

Everything Z Magic!

XoXo

Ash

And that Feels Like Life!

She got up at the sound of breeze outside. Cold, freezing wind...she felt it on her face. It seemed to caress her hair, like never before. She stared into the darkness, tempting and at the same time scary. She felt the darkness embedding inside, reminding her of all the dark phases of her life!
Yes it happened in a moment, she saw her whole life flash behind her eyes.
And then, almost when the darkness was about to take the grip of her whole heart, sun started to rise. There was a hope..there was light. And she could see, sunlight on the mountain top. The snow shined like diamond..gorgeous. slowly and slowly sun rose and enlightened the whole world. Her heart too..she felt hope and light forming a hard grip on her heart. And then she could see everything clearly.

Manali really feels like life. Anything and everything that happens here, is like life.

XoXo
Nashee

A woman!

I am a woman. And I dont have any one personality. I have a rich personality, full of so many facets, that it only takes another rich personality to understand me.
I am happy and another moment I may be sad.
I may be talking cheerfully with you and the next moment I may hate you.
I may be fiercely independent, but I may be extremely emotional at times.
I may be looking forward to a fruitful career, and I may be craving for a love-borne child
I may want to party and at the same time I may want to have a cup of coffee alone.

These things dont make me confusing or wierd. They make me special.
There are many like me.
And it only takes people like me to understand me.

XoXo
Nashee

Milne ki dua krna!

Chalte hain khuda hafiz..bas itni guzarish hai..
Jab yaad meri aaye to milne ki dua krna.

Mausam jo badle..barkha jo chaaye...jo raat apna aanchal phailaye..
Jab shamma jalana..to milne ki dua krna..

Zara bacha k rakhna is daaman ko duniya ki tadbeero se..
Jo kabhi dil tmhara dagmagaye..To milne ki dua krna..

Wahi hum honge..wahi tum hoge..wahi ranjishen..wahi kahkahe..
Jo maazi ki yaad sataaye..to milne ki dua krna..

Maana ki dekhe hain ahmad ne..sab hi paimaano k asraat..
Jo kabhi naino ki talab ho..milne ki dua krna..