Hennah... A women's story!

"Iski haathon ki mehndi kitni khoobsurat hai" aunty pointed out to me noticing my sister's hand
"Ji" I said

I hid my hand under my dupatta. My mehendi was not as good as my sister's. Well, considering it was her day, it wasn't supposed to be. She was the Bride after all.

My sister was looking stunning in her gorgeous red lehenga and gold jewellery. As if one of the beautiful sculpture of ancient god's have come to life.

"Sonam tumhari beti ki shaadi hai aur tumne mehendi srf ek haath mein lagai" aunty commented on my mother.

"Are beti ki shaadi mein itna kaam hota hai... Kya Karen" my mum replied

My sister was sitting quietly gazing at her hands. I went upto her.
"Are you ok?" I asked
"Hmm" she replied a tear dropping on her hand.
I placed my hand on hers.
 "It's going to be ok". I said

Loud whispers near the door caught my attention. My father in tears and his hands folded.
"Abhi itna hi hai. Shaadi ke Baad baaki dedenge"  He pleaded.

"Nai bhai Sahab Poora dijiye tabhi ladki Ko leke jaaenge'. My sister's father-in-law said.

I looked at the groom... My jeeju. Why wasn't he doing anything. I noticed small round mehendi on his hands. Why do guys put mehendi? My brain asked.

I went to them but was immediately asked to leave as I was young. I saw my sister looking out the window. Looking at the scene.

After much rapid discussion I saw my father kneel infront of him. And something crushed my heart. Before I started to go upto them. I heard the light banging of bangles beside me. It was my sister.

"Uncle ji" She said looking at her father-in-law directly. She took out her bangles and placed on his hand. "Please make your son wear these. He already has mehendi on his hand. It will look good on him"

She turned to my so called jeeju and said "I hope you get that the marriage is off."

She went to her room and locked the door.

After several attempts and her not opening the door. My dad gave up. Confirming she was safe everyone went to have restless sleep.

Next morning as usual we sat down for breakfast. When my sister came out with her apron on.

"Mama I am going to hospital... Tania come. It's your first day as surgical intern. You don't want to miss it." She said picking her keys.

After a quite drive and two hours of pre operative prep of patient we went inside the O.T
After discussing the plan of surgery. My sister's hennah covered hands slid under the surgical gloves. I saw the beautiful designed hands slowly hiding under the thick plastic.

Holding her hands out she whispered.
"Scapel please"

Love that Answered Everything!

"In today's generation people are using their fingers more for typing than writing."She told him
"So what are you typing love" he asked
"Secrets"She said
"What secret?. I thought there were no secrets between us" he asked

She looked at his question filled eyes. They were dark and beautiful. She felt his eyes were a wonderland of solutions. Solutions to solve her life.

She placed her hand on her face. Looking deeply into his eyes.

"Everyone has secrets dear" she replied
"Hmm? Well then can I know one?" He asked
"Okay... Well one if my secret is that I love your eyes"
"I know that." He replied naughtily
"Not like that stupid. I feel your eyes have solution to all my problems."
"Really!  well let me solve one more problem of yours" he said coming closer..

Few years later...

"I cant believe you came here. You wanna talk about property. My husband is dead. I just had a baby. I haven't seen my baby's face yet. And you want me to find solution now." She screamed angrily
"I can't help it mam. You three days to figure this out." He replied
"I know but"... She got inturepted when the nurse came with her baby.
"Well he is ready to be fed" the nurse said smiling and handing her the baby.

She looked at her new baby. His nose and lips were like his grand father. And then he opened his eyes. They were dark. Just like his father.
She smiled at her new found Love!

"Well Mr.Tom you keep the papers here. We will find a solution."

Eid & Equality!!

She was sitting on the chair with dates in her hand ready to put in her mouth.

"Ammy. When will the Azan start?? I want to see the Eid moon" she asked eagerly.

"Soon beta" her mother replied

Though they lived in hut. Yet they had ample meal to fill everyone stomachs.

After azan she quickly gobbled up her dates and water and ran outside. As she passed the gates she saw her friends running outside too. Little bells on their anklet kept knocking together as they ran out of their huts.

Somehow the slum was beautiful today.

 They ran and reached the mansion. The old man left it to her friend's father. They got permission to go up the roof and look at the moon.

Hastily they went to the roof.

"I don't see it" one of her friends shouted.

"It's not visible right now" a group shouted from behind.

As they turned around they saw well-dressed, well-presented kids of their age.

"What are you doing here?" The slum kids shouted. "You can't be here if your parents see us we will get in trouble"

"No it's ok. Please let us see the moon." The kids requested.

In the midst of all this someone shouted “There is the moon. Eid Mubarak!!!”

And they all started hugging each other.

A beautiful sight of society classes merging in union, on this beautiful occasion.

Eid really did bring people together!

The Crescent Moon: Eid Mubarak

There is a saying “Work hard in silence and let Success make the noise.”

And that's what is done in the holy month of Ramadan. After a month of praying, fasting, and spending sleepless nights of worship, a day comes when all the children run up to the tallest building in the area to see the Crescent Moon.

The sighting of the moon brings an end to the hard work and welcomes the Fun-time. 

Visiting the friends and relatives..

The Sweets..

The Siwayin..

Receiving the Eidi (YES..that's the best part)..

Eid is a joyous occasion which is celebrated around the world.

And a beautiful occasion like is upon us..

And we..here at Nashee's Diaries wish you the very best of this Festival..

May you be showered with Joy and Love!

Eid Mubarak!!

Human..The Trouble Maker

When we talk about the greatest problems on Earth..

We talk about pollution..We talk about poverty..We talk about crime..We talk about war..

But what is the greatest problem on Earth??

Here is the simple answer:

It's US...

..that’s right US...

We, the Human Beings..

WHY?

Because when Earth came to life there was no crime,
there was no poverty..

and there was no war. 

But when humans came, crime came, poverty came, and even war became to happen..

What leads to these problems..is the difference in our belief, words and actions.

We say we are united but actually we have divided ourselves. 

We have divided ourselves into Nations, Religions, Races, Casts, Genders etc etc

Why can’t we simply call ourselves earthlings. So much easier to remember.

We say men were born equal so why do we treat some people as insignificant as bugs... but some as important as Gods. 

Why do we treat Americans and African American differently? 

We talk about gender equality, but still discriminate between men and women.

Why do we do that?

Because we are ALL BARK AND NO BITE. 

And that makes US the greatest problem on Earth!!

A Gift to Remember!

It was the best gift I ever received in my life.

It was not just a book. It was the feeling that brought the book to me.

The first time he gave it to me, I lost it. Someone borrowed it and never gave it back (people..HUH!)

And then 2 years later, he gave that book to me..again..

But this time it was different. This time it was not just the book that I was receiving. It was Love!

Pure Love!

A book of mere 350 rs. And I still cherish it, more than I cherish many of my worldly things.

Now its old, the pages are all yellow. 

But I know, that I want to keep it safe, and I want to pass it on...to my kids..

Not coz its such an amazing read. 

But coz I want them to know, that no matter what happens...I am going to cherish that book..

Always....and Forever!!

I remember!

Its been years since I have seen him. But I remember.

I remember how his hands supports my head.
I remember the soft touch of his kiss.
I remember when his tears wet my cheeks.
I remember when he buries his face on my shoulder.
I remember the pressure on my lap when his head rest on me.
I remember my fingers running through his hair
I remember tips of my fingers touching his lips.
I remember spaces between his fingers grasping my fingers.
I remember his soft pecks on my cheeks.

Its a chilly evening and there is fog on my window's glass. Its chilly and stormy, just like my mind..So much is going on..so much to remember..

But my heart is clear, and peaceful..I cherish everything about him..

Because even today.... I remember!

The Message of Love!

                                       

I am standing beside my window
Pouring my heart tonight
 The sky is twinkling with stars
Like your presence in my life
I remember the day I met you
I was alone with my thoughts
world tore me everyday
Sadness took away my light
Saw you there with your guitar
Your voice had pain inside
You were broken too, my love
But there was hope in your eyes
day we talked for first time
Cupid shot his arrow in light
It landed in my heart, my love
A bond was made in heaven that night
Scared I was, when I looked at you
You could have broken what was left
Didn't want to hand you my heart
Didn't knew then you are the best
Time crossed and you proved your love
When you told me you are mine
I prayed to God to make us one
For as much time we had in life
Your voice is a hope
That's in my life
You gave some shine
In my then dark night
I love your eyes,
 I love your smile
I love when you sing
To me every night
I want to kiss your tears
I want to kiss your smile
I want to make love to you
Each and every night
So I pray to God my love
That we live in our own forever
Under our bright and shiny sky.

~Ayesha

Happy..Until the end of time!

One day inside a chapel
I will hold your hand without a hassle
Ocean will be roaring beside
Love of mine will not hide
Cherish this day dear
For It's all ours
We will take vow
And we will smile
You will look at me
And I will be shy
I will kiss your lips
You will kiss mine
Lord will look upon us
As you take me for your wife
I will tell you my love
You will tell me
That Together we shall live
Happily Until the end of time.

~Ayesha

The Moonlit Kiss

A little drop of rain fell onto her cheek as she closed her eyes.
The storm had the same essence..
It had the same of amount of heat..
The same amount of passion..

She remembered...
His touch..
That night...
That kiss... 
That sky..
That moon.

MOON.

She looked up to the moon Shining among the stars..it was bright as ever, even in the storm!!

"Hey there" she said looking up in the sky "I remember this.. It feels the same. Do you remember it?"

She giggled over her silliness, somewhere hoping that the moon conveys her message.

And then..
The Moon silently disappears into the clouds..........

~Ayesha khan

Flat Line

"Kaisan ho baba" I asked placing steth around my neck

"Thik hoon beti" he replied
I looked at the old man. He was beautiful. Wearing dhoti and a banyan he reminded me of someone. 
"Dada"! My brain informed

"Baba koi takleef hai aaj" I asked
"Nahi beti! Aaj bahut hi thik hain" he replied

After an hour of examination and history i decided to leave.

"Beti mein thik hojaonga na" he asked
"Haan baba! Yahan pe saare doctors apka khayal rakkhenge" I replied
"Tum abhi seekh rahi ho?" He asked 
"Ji Baba... Dua kariye acchi doctor Banu" I replied
"Allah tumko kamiyabi de" he said with a smile

Next day I came to my ward. Whether outside had a creepy essence. I placed my bag on the chair suddenly..

"CPR STAT" a voice echoed.
"What!" My brain shouted.
I ran to see what happened outside. Old man was lying on the bed. Peacefully and unconscious. 
Doctors shoved us away and were busy giving him CPR and slow I.v ADR. 

"We have to ventialte him" somebody shouted
And just like that my brain started repeating Dua.
" He isnot going to die" I informed my brain "No Ayesha don't think this"

"Comeone Comeone... Continue" someone was shouting

Suddenly old man's family started crying and shoving doctors stoping them from helping him. Doctors kept on trying to convince but the consent was withdrawn.

"Flat line" a nurse informed

"No" my brain screamed.

A life slipped away from our hands.

~Ayesha

Aadat?? Or Love?? ~Part 1

There is a difference between love and aadat(habit).

Aadat choot jaati hai mohabbat nahi. 
Aadat badli jaa sakta hai aashiki nahi. 
Adat ki lat khtm ho sakti hai... Ishk ki inteha nahi.

Learn to recognize. Are you his  love? Or you are just an aadat??

The moment you get to know you are aadat. RUN. DONOT TURN BACK.

~Ayesha khan

Mai hun..Aur mai hun!!

ruki si hai zindagi..gumsum si shaam hai..
yaadein hi yaadein hain..bina neend ki raaten hain..
kabhi beinteha hansi hai, to kabhi annkho mein paani hai..
kabhi koi awaaz chaunka jati hai..to kabhi khamoshi uljhan ban jati hai..
mohabbato ka daur tha..ab nahin raha ahmad

bas chubhta hua dard hai..mai hun..aur mai hun.!

#NasheesDiaries

Solutions? Anyone?

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Ways to Heal a Broken Heart- Part 1

You know how they say, a wound starts to heal, when new skin starts to grow around it..

Well similarly, to heal a broken heart, you need new skin...adn that skin should be, Tall, Dark and Handsome!!

#NasheesDiaries

The 100th Blog: The Lost Self Respect

It's not about betrayal..
It's not abour disloyalty..
It's not even about the fake declared Love..
It's about everything else..
It's about the sanctity of those three words.
It's about all the times you held my hands..
It's about all the times you kissed me..and didnt mean it..
It's about all those nights that you spent with me..which were not about love..But about satisfying your own ego..
Its about what broke on my chest..when I realised that I lost my trust to someone..who did all those things out of his own selfish interests and guilts..
It's about what I felt..deep down..in my heart..
It's about all the tears that I lost over you..
It's what I lost..
and that includes my Self Respect!!

#nasheesdiaries

Happy Foodlintine's Day!!

So Valentine's upon us...Again..
What is it about this day, that make us so vulnerable..
What is it that we get upset..
Is it so important to celeberate love?
Why cant we just leave it as it is..
Why do we need to show it..
Or do we need to show..coz we dnt feel it..deep in our hearts..

Something is so unfufilling about this day..that every year..we sob about our lovelessness and lonliness..on this very same day..

May be its time to change that..and celeberate the independence that we have..the variety of options that we have..the cuisines we can taste and the desserts we can enjoy..

Happy Foodlintines Day!!

😍😍😍

Knock! One Ball at a Time!!

Have you ever felt, that your life is not easy..
Have you ever felt, that no matter how adapt and adjusted you get to the game..there is always a new ball thrown at you.
Have you ever felt, that you are just about to loose it..

Well let me tell you a secret..everyone feels that way..

The people who are laughing and smiling..are just the people who are fighting even harder..

Can you ever win a game, without playing??

Just keep fighting..with each ball comes a new learning...and with each learning..you are one step closer to knowing it all..and with each step..you are closer to that perfection, that you hope for.

everyone is fighting battles..and most of us are Loosing..So dont worry about that..Just keep knocking...one Ball at a time..

XoXo
Nashee

Khwahish: Ghazal

Josh zamane mein, hai khamoshi mere andar
Bheed ka alam, hai tanhai mere andar

Jab dekhti  hu un ajnabi aankhon mein shanasai
Barpa ho jata hai ek toofan mere andar

Darti hu zamane se, kahin loot na le
Insaan hu magar, hai maasoomiyat mere andar

Daudi chali jaati hu, manzil ki talaash mein
Dekha jo apna dil, to tha quraa’n mere andar

Kabhi yu ho ki mere lafz jaga jaayen chand zameero ko
AHMAD ye nadaan si, hai khwahish mere andar

Love/Relationship???

Relationships arent supposed to be Happy..
or Loving
or Fulfilling
or Romantic
or Passionate
or Caring
or Consuming
or Satisfying
or Perfect
or for You.

They are supposed to be for the Society..for the world to see..

Its the job of "Love" to be all those things..

Both dont necessarily go together!!

Nashee

The Real Life Tale

Its never perfect..It will never be perfect!!

And this is a good thing..Now we can all stop looking for that unexisting fairy tale..and start accepting the tale that we get..the Real Life Tale.

No prince charming is going to come on a white horse..It will be a regular man..in a car..who works a 9 to 5..thats how it works..

Its not going to be a perfect palace..If you are very lucky..it will be a 3 bedroom flat in a good area..

Thats how life is..Its never a Martini..its always a lemonade...and you have to make it Yourself!!

MI

Relationships are difficult as it is..You just add in a little Time, Distance and Family..

and wallah..

you got yourself a Mission Impossible!!

The Feminist's Truth

Every culture in the world has one thing in common..and i.e "girls getting all boo-boo ovee marriage"..its all a cultural thing..its just programmed in our brains that being married is a milestone that one has to achieve..successful or not..thats a concern that comes later...but you have to fulfill a bare minimum..its common in every single girl..

But then in every culture. There will be 1 in a 100 girls..who will be against this programming..and somehow her strings get tangled and she seems crazy to the rest of the lot..But mind you..SHE IS STILL THE SAME GOOEY ROMANTIC, PRINCE CHARMING ON THE WHITE HORSE kinda girl..

Every now and then, her strings will untangle and she will get on the "normal train".

#ToAllTheUnmarriedLadiesOutThere

PS- Prince Charming is right around the corner <3 <3

My Village

So there I was..in the most beautiful village possible..
where people knew me..
where there was no hypocrisy..
people met with open hearts..
they had little money..and no luxuries..
but there hearts were made if gold..
and they opened there hearts and wallet to us..

where things werent shiny and new..
but they were clean and dingy..
where we all had that srso ka saag and ganne..in other peoples homes..

where life is slow..too slow..but the heart beats are fast..

where life is dull..but happy!!

thats my village..
my Qayamganj!!

#NasheesDiaries

Lies Please! Anyone?

Everybody loves a good Lie. Yeah you read it right.

LIES..thats what people love.

You can be honest..truthful..but nobody likes that. Because they cant handle the truth..men for instance!

They want co-dependent, weak, always smiling and perky women. They cant handle strong independent women..hence the single streak..

Strong women, say what they feel...the TRUTH..which obviously, is such a ball buster..So what should we do?

Be Perky??or be Truthful?
Be Honest? or just keep the truth to ourself?

What???

You made me a Non-Quitter!!

" You know what..I can't even believe I am saying this..But I am in f*****g Love with you. "

I have denied it till now, to myself, that this is all a mirage..and you are just an idea of love. But that's not true at all. You are my Love. From the moment, you came into my life, I haven't been able to sleep peacefully. It been such a up-down hill kind of journey. I have been so tired at times, that I just wanted to STOP.

Me...the person, with so much of life, wanted to stop. That's how tired I got. And then I wondered, why didn't I just quit..Its not like, it was impossible. I just didn't. And I blame YOU for that.

You did this to me. You made me a non-quitter. And i f*****g Love it. I love what you have made me into. I love knowing, that even though, we are practically not talking at all..I am still what you made me into.

So yeah..I Love You..and I am not gonna quit!!!

XoXo

Nashee

One Moment

Our perception changes..

Always remember that!!

One moment, you might hate a place or a person, and as soon as you are away from them, or say you loose them, you start missing them..

One moment, you may Love someone, and another, you might hate them, or something they did.

One moment, you may hate your job, you boss, another moment, you might fall in love with them.

Just One Moment, that's all it takes!!

XoXo

Nashee