Beautiful soul!

Every time I look at you..I see some one beautiful..someone with a beautiful soul..someone who I can admire and love at the same time..someone who i want to see all the time..someone with whom I can sit for hours..and not talk..n still be happy an fulfilled..someone with whom I can appreciate the silence..someone who has touched my soul..someone who has brought me closer to my Lord..someone who I am certain..will be cherished by me..no matter what fate writes in for me..everytime..every single time..I look at you..I just want to look at you..and thats it!!
XoXo
Nashee

Thankful

Last night I woke up at a voice..in the middle of the night..lying in my cozy bed, I heard it say..
" why are you still asleep? Dont you have to study??"
I said-" no..who cares about studies, when my life is so messed up? I am overweight, my parents are away from me, i hate my room, i dnt hav any real frenz, all my frenz hav achieved so much in life and i am struggling to appear in a bloody exam, is that life?? Is that how it is supposed to be??

The voice said," are you in syria where children and parents are watchng each oder take their last breath??
Are you aware of the conditions that gazans are living in?
Are you aware how many dreams have been crushed?
Did you see the pain in the child's eye, when he saw other children go to school? Did you see that old man on the road, who is suffring frm hypothermia and hasnt had a bite to eat since 3 days?
Did you see that woman, who was raped, and left on the street to die?
Did you see that man, who works his ass off to get a piece of bread at the end of the day?

And most of all, do you see them complaining?? They are all still thanking their God for what they have! The woman is thanking Allah that she is still breathing!
That kid is hoping to be a lawyer some day!
That man is smiling that he has clothes to wear! "

My hands went numb, legs cudnt move and i woke up.. tears falling down my eyes..i was asleep on my bed..I could hear the sound of the room heater..i could feel the warmth of my blanket..

And it took me fraction of seconds to get up...climb out of my bed and stand in front of Allah, thanking for all that he has given me..without asking, without expectng anythng in return..

I was lucky..I am lucky!

Alhamdulillah!

XoXo
Nashee

Ki Hum Haun Adhure!

Kabhi to aao..ki hum hain adhure..
Yu hi muskurao..ki hum hain adhure..

Sambhal k chalna to dastur hai..
Zara ladhkhadao..ki hum hain adhure..

Behekti nigahen..tarasti hain baahein..
Gale se lagao..ki hum hain adhure..

Aadat ho jaye, tere awaaz ki...
Aise bulao..ki hum hain adhure..

Ki hum hain adhure..
Kabhi to aao..ki hum hain adhure..

XoXo
Nashee

Rise in Love!

You love someone,you open yourself up for SUFFERING..
May you will break their heart..may be they will break yours..
Or may be..the fate will take you to distances..

May be you will never be able to look at yourself the same way..

They are like wings..they have weight..you can feel the burden..
But this burden lifts us up..Burden that allows us to fly..

"Let's not fall..but rise in love!"

XoXo
Nashee!

Happy "Need You Mama" Day!

"Mummy! I need food"
"Mummy! I need to bathe"
"Mummy! I need to do my homework"
"Mummy! I need money for canteen"
"Mummy! I need dress for graduation"
"Mummy! I need to buy something special with my first salary..kya lu??"
"Mummy! I need to buy clothes for my friend's wedding..kya lu"
"Mummy! I need to do something special for my husband..kya karu??"
"Mummy! My kid is not well..kya kru?"

"Mummy..this...mummy..that"

No matter how old we grow..we will be kids who need their moms at every stage of life..

Celeberate the child in you!
Happy Children's Day!

XoXo
Nashee!

The Mind's Calling!

As I lay in my bed..with sun rays teasing me through the window..I close my eyes..And just like a reflex action..you pop into my brains..And I could see your smile..your beautiful eyes..and you smile at me..calling me to you..and I wish I could run...run all the way..into your arms..And as I struggle in my conscience..to touch you...I realise that you are not here..and then I realise..its my Mind's calling..and for the first time..my whole body is unision..And i know..That I Want You..no matter what..

So, now just like any another manager..strategy formulation starts...

XoXo
Nashee

One Step Closer

That night we just laid there..immersed in our thoughts..every ounce of our blood repeating just one thing.."we were one step closer"

Looking into each others eyes..we didn't even realize when the sun came up..

It was time to leave the graveyard...She looked back, while she walked away.."one step closer"..and she smiled..

XoXo
Nashee

Theory of Relativity!

The words "sad" and "happy" are overrated. Nothing in this world is "absolute". Everything is "relative".

Same things that made you happy, can cause your eyes to tear up. And the things that made you sad once, can make you laugh like crazy.

Its all about, situations..
When the world rotates.. and the day changes to night, the relativity of things change. And with the blink of an eye.."happy" changes to "sad".

XoXo
Nashee!

"Its better to have loved and lost..than to never have loved at all"

Why does love happen?? Always for a reason..Sometimes, its the closeness that you enjoy..sometimes its the other person's company...sometimes..its all about how they make you feel..Sometimes..you just are attracted..sometimes..their looks...

But there is always one time..when its without a reason..they may not be that c;lose to you..you might not really enjoy their their company..they might make you feel bad..at times too...and they might not look like Salman Khan..

but you love them...just for who they are..no strings attached..no expectations..no returns...no gain..no loss...just a feeling..

a feeling that stays..no matter how much you try to push it to the back of your mind..it stays...in the subconscious...

You might not even remember why you love them..you just do..all you know is your heart flutters when you see them..and your lips turn into a big smile...when you think about them...and talking about them..makes you feel on the top of the world..

you tell their story to the world..keeping them anonymous...coz you are afraid of letting that feeling go...

Have you felt it??I have..its amazing..
if you havent..open your heart to this possibility...

"Its better to have loved and lost..than to never have loved at all"

XoXo

Nashee!

The Lost Pride.

"Pride"...
Its the one thing that girls are most proud of..They need to KNOW, that they have the best in the world.
The Best shoes...
The Best dress...
The Best Jwellery..
The Best Friend...
And...
The Best Boyfriend/ Husband..

I had that pride once.. I had the best of everything..and flaunted everything with the confidence that could be only seen in a newly wed bride.

But..I managed to ruin everything..in just one go...i lost everything..My best friend..my love..my pride..

May be i deserved it..may be I didnt..

All I know is..I have lost my PRIDE forever!

XoXo
Nashee

The perfect goodbye!

Dear dairy
It was a beautiful day today. Today i realised how far i came from that fustrating life. I saw him today..
he looked handsome as always. I know u will say i am supposed to forget him and believe after today.. i am done. I got my perfect closure.
I still remember the day when he promised me that he will call me everyday. Its been months and today when i saw him.. i felt nothing. Not even hate...
infact diary I pity him... u should have seen the look on his face... he was ashamed... and i did something i thaught i wont be able to do...
i extended my hands for a handshake..  and when he took them he was embarassed. Before he could say anything i turned away. Its was a perfect goodbye diary. Perfect

XoXo
Ash

Causing Self- Destruction

In all my life, and all my dumb crushes and infactuations and even serious love..you were the one I fell in love with again and again.

And everytym..it was deeper and deeper.. i should have known that it was dangerous grounds..i should have been prepared..

There was a red signal, the day you kissed me exactly like I wanted to be kissed...
and another one, the day you saved me from those creeps..
and another one, the day you held my hand and promised that my dreams were gonna come true.
And another one, the day you juz held me in your arms..

There are so many..so many moments, that I should have noticed. I should have backed down...but I let my guard down..and you kept on penetrating my heart..untill.....

Untill....you destroyed me!

XoXo
Nashee!

Try Try Until You Succeed!

Career is one of the most important thing of our life...
how does it feel to sit in a corner crying on our failed career?
To curse god for making life misrable? 
To listen all kinds of crap from family and friends? 

Here is what i learnt from a very well known faliure...
when you fail... cry!... cry for a week.. a month...a year...
but...when you are done...get up...find out what made you loose...

when someone reminds you of your failure... 
listen... 
understand.. 
evolve... 
rise the "beast" in you..
quench your thirst for revenge of this humilation. 
Be patient... 
talk to god.. 
fight with him...
cry... 
but believe he is listening.. 
u aint just talking to yourself in an empty room... he is up there somewhere listening your everyword.. 
dont let set backs calm your beast down... 
do not let a tear fall when someone makes you feel weak.. tear makes you feel light... 

then one day when you get exactly what you want... calm your beast down... and smile cheerfully to all those people who once humilated you... 
your  smile is your revenge. 

And if you haven't got what you wanted... believe this... 

"after night... day certainly comes"

You will WIN.

XoXo
Ash