Goodbye 2016-RIP

Well!
Its time to say goodbye to "2016" and many have paid their respects..I thought I should too..

This I year I lost..my grandfather..I lost my cousin brother..I lost a friend..This year..my engagement fell through..this year I got frustrated so damn much..that I even forgot the most important day of life..

This year has given to me..nothing but experiences..each one of them..adding to my eagerness..for this to end..

This year gave me..fear..anger..jealousy..frustration..

But also gave me perspective..I now know..for sure what I want..I know, what really  matters..I know how to deal with things..

No matter what hardships I went through..I emerged a better person..a stronger person..

All in all I wish to say thanks to this year..may it rest in peace.. ;-)

XoXo
Nashee

The Unrequited Love -2.0

Hum ek baar jeete hain, ek baar marte hain, shadi bhi ek hi baar hoti hai..aur pyar.......pyar bhi ek hi baar hota hai..

That one time love, stays forever..etched in you heart..

it has..in mine..

it is like a carving on stone, it cant be rubbed off..it just cant..I have tried, like million of times..it hides, for sometym, and then comes crawling back into my life..

They say LoVe HuRts..mine duznt..it helps me breathe..it helps me forget everything..all the pain..all the sorrow in the world..

its like a fresh breeze of an autumn morning..
Like a cozy blanket in a winter evening.
Like a cold shower in summer noon..
Like a rain..in drought..

Its Love...and I want to thank my love..for this gift..that he duznt even know, he has given me..

Yes..that is the beauty of unrequited love..its there..no body knows...except you...its a SECRET..juz yours to keep..

So keep breathing. And keep Loving..not evryone has this blessing!

The Friend

Walking down the road, she realised what she has done. How could she let it happen? How could she let him touch her? It was her fault. She shudnt have said yes to the movie. She said YES. She went with him to the movies. She had that coffee before the movie. And that is why it happened. That is why he did that to her. She shud hav said NO to the ride in his car. She shud have known better. But he was a friend. Do friends do that, what he did to her?

Crying her eyes out, the 17 year old girl, reached a medical store and bought rat killer!

XoXo
Nashee

For The Society

"Hey! I Love You. And I wanna marry you"
Her world was filled with light..she wanted to hear these words. She felt the truest of happiness. Her mind started wandering..
" i will wear a traditional lehenga, u know the one with kiran bordered dupatta"- she told her friends
" I will get gharara from that boutique, make-up from here and jwellery from there"
From decorations to menu to venue...she planned everything..the planning that otherwise takes months..she did it in moments..that excited she was.. she could not stop smiling.
She was going to marry the love of her life..

10 Years Later-
" Jaan I will marry you, I promise..I Love You so much. Thanks for waiting for me, what would I do without you"

She fought the society, fought her family and most of her fought with herself, She wanted a traditional life and that included a wedding. She has been waiting.
" Its worth it, she told herself."

Wedding Day-
" Congrats honey, finally your day is here"
Her friends were excited, family was happy and society...well the society was dancing, just like at any other wedding.

But her world was quite...she coudnt hear the music on the DJ. She couldnt hear the laughter..She couldnt feel her traditional lehenga..she coudnt enjoy the decorations.

She was getting married- for the society.

The wait was enough!

XoXo
Nashee

Beautiful soul!

Every time I look at you..I see some one beautiful..someone with a beautiful soul..someone who I can admire and love at the same time..someone who i want to see all the time..someone with whom I can sit for hours..and not talk..n still be happy an fulfilled..someone with whom I can appreciate the silence..someone who has touched my soul..someone who has brought me closer to my Lord..someone who I am certain..will be cherished by me..no matter what fate writes in for me..everytime..every single time..I look at you..I just want to look at you..and thats it!!
XoXo
Nashee

Thankful

Last night I woke up at a voice..in the middle of the night..lying in my cozy bed, I heard it say..
" why are you still asleep? Dont you have to study??"
I said-" no..who cares about studies, when my life is so messed up? I am overweight, my parents are away from me, i hate my room, i dnt hav any real frenz, all my frenz hav achieved so much in life and i am struggling to appear in a bloody exam, is that life?? Is that how it is supposed to be??

The voice said," are you in syria where children and parents are watchng each oder take their last breath??
Are you aware of the conditions that gazans are living in?
Are you aware how many dreams have been crushed?
Did you see the pain in the child's eye, when he saw other children go to school? Did you see that old man on the road, who is suffring frm hypothermia and hasnt had a bite to eat since 3 days?
Did you see that woman, who was raped, and left on the street to die?
Did you see that man, who works his ass off to get a piece of bread at the end of the day?

And most of all, do you see them complaining?? They are all still thanking their God for what they have! The woman is thanking Allah that she is still breathing!
That kid is hoping to be a lawyer some day!
That man is smiling that he has clothes to wear! "

My hands went numb, legs cudnt move and i woke up.. tears falling down my eyes..i was asleep on my bed..I could hear the sound of the room heater..i could feel the warmth of my blanket..

And it took me fraction of seconds to get up...climb out of my bed and stand in front of Allah, thanking for all that he has given me..without asking, without expectng anythng in return..

I was lucky..I am lucky!

Alhamdulillah!

XoXo
Nashee

Ki Hum Haun Adhure!

Kabhi to aao..ki hum hain adhure..
Yu hi muskurao..ki hum hain adhure..

Sambhal k chalna to dastur hai..
Zara ladhkhadao..ki hum hain adhure..

Behekti nigahen..tarasti hain baahein..
Gale se lagao..ki hum hain adhure..

Aadat ho jaye, tere awaaz ki...
Aise bulao..ki hum hain adhure..

Ki hum hain adhure..
Kabhi to aao..ki hum hain adhure..

XoXo
Nashee