Poem 2

Mai hu mausam, badalna hai fitral meri..
Mana ki abr ki chaon mein hai qismat meri..
Sooraj hu mai, aaj nahin to kal..
Arsh-o-farsh pe chamkegi roshni meri..
Mere afsaane ka anjaam abh baqi hai ahmad..
Abhi to aaghaz pe hai kahani meri.

‪#‎selfPoetry‬
‪#‎feelingPoeticAfterALongTime‬

Gloomy!

When the times are tough..and the mind is gloomy..
When the sun is bright, but the heart is dull..
When the pizza is available..and stomach is full..
When the night is dark..and so are your days..
Thats when you know, who your friends are..

‪#‎Gloomy‬

Dear Future Me!

Hey!
Dear Future Me!
Remember an year back..when you were so confused..
Remember when you started avoiding the poisons in your life..
Remember how hard it was to let go of your memories..that were ruining your days and nights..
Remember how painfully satisfying it was to cry yourself to sleep at night..
Remember the difficult time...
Well it was nt for nothing..
Isnt your life awesome now..
I know that most probably you are still struggling..for fantasies to come true..
But its ok..coz in another one year..the pain will lessen more..
And you might start getting happy..
So juz chill..and keep it up!

‪#‎AnotherLateNightRevelation‬

kaash!

ज़िन्दगी की भाग दौड़ में..अक्सर हम खुद को कहीं पीछे छोड़ आते हैं।
अपनी ख्वाहिशो क पीछे भागते भागते हम अपने आप को ग़ायब कर लेते हैं। ना...दुनिया की नजरो से नहीं..खुद की नरज़ो से ओझल हो जाते हैं हम..
हम ये भूल जाते हैं..की ऊपर कोई है..सर्वशक्तिमान..जो हमारी कहानी लिख रहा है..फिर क्यों हम अंधाधुंध भागते जाते हैं..
क्यों किसी और को सजा देने क बहाने..हम खुद को ही सजा सुना देते हैं..ग़लतियो पे ग़लतिया करते जाते हैं..और फिर उन ग़लतियो को सुधरने न पाने की वजह से..अपने आप सेनफरत करने लगते हैं।
सफ़र कोई भी हो..ख़त्म होता है। मंज़िल मिलती ही है..चाहे जितना समय लग जाये। फिर हम क्यों बेसब्रो की तरह, उल्टा दौड़ते हैं।
काश क हम में इतना सब्र होता।काश क हम ऊपर वाले के निर्णय का इंतज़ार करते।
तब हमारी कहानी..बचपन वाली राजकुमारी जैसे होती।
काश।

"I Dont Love him"

"I Dont Love him"
"I Dont Love Him"
I told myself TRILLIONS of times..
On BILLION different occasions..
MILLIONS of times..
But no one believes me..niether does my heart..nor my brains..

कहते हैं किसी बात को हज़ार बार याद करो, तो उसपे विशवास होने लगता है।

अब जब खुद को विशवास नहीं दिला पा रही तो दूसरो को कैसे दिलाऊं?
ज़िन्दगी भी अजीब खेल खेल गयी।

Tell me o khuda..ab mai kya karu....

Special Someone!

In one of my past relationships, I found excitement and convenience..Things were easy, accessible and more importantly affable..

Then there was comfort and incredible connection..the kind of mental connection which you expect out of a soul mate...

It wasnt until him that i found content..and when I did, there was no excitement, neither the connection, nor the convenience..but the CONTENT was worth it..I felt secure, loved, cared, special. I felt like I was making a difference, in someones life..that I meant something, to someone...I felt happy!

And trust me girls, its worth it!

Today you might think, that u cant live without that one guy, who you feel mental connection with, but let me assure you, you can and you will...

Because you can’t just fall in love, you can rise.... with that special person....

I know I did!

And I never wanna Love again!!

#sPeciAlSomeOne

"Kuch to hai tujhse raabta"

"Kuch to hai tujhse raabta"

Kehte hain khuda ne is jahan mein sabhi k liye..kisi na kisi ko hai banaya har kisi k liye...
Are you the one for me??
Yes! I have loved you, for as long as I remember..
Yes! every moment with you is like icing on the sundae of life and sunday of the week..
Yes! every moment that i spend without you, is lifeless..
Yes! I may be smiling on the outside, but deep in my heart I am crying rivers..coz I want you, right beside me..
And Yes! the second half of the line above..feels like its for me..

"Tera milna hai us rab ka ishara maano, mujhko banaya tere jaise ki kisi kliye..
:)

In Love....Again!

It was a hot sunny day..monotonous boring everyday...
you came in like a fresh breeze of spring..
And I could feel my heart melting away..
And juz like that...........

I was in Love all over again!!

Is This Love?

"I will come back, I promise. I just need sometime."-he said to me...yesterday...no last month...no..last year...I am not sure...
All i know is, he will come back, and I am waiting for him..And I will wait for him...I can see seasons passing by...from my window....

Sometimes its chilly, and I can see smoky fog accumulating on my window sill...
sometimes it rains, and I can see Rain droplets cleaning my window..Ah...the rain..."Its you nas, it has always been you." his loving words echoed my ears and juz like that rain outside, few droplets came out of my eyes and joined the rain on my window sill..
sometimes its bright outside, so bright that I can hardly open my eyes..it makes me wonder if HE is back...n Happiness has clouded my eye sight...

He is all I have, and he promised..so I have to wait, until eternity.....

Am I crazy?or is this Love??

26th April!

“Julia, please cancel all my meetings for today.”I said into the phone speaker in my office.
“OK sir.”came the reply.
I am not well today. But being a senior member of my office I had to come to work. So here I was coughing and sneezing, in my office.i thought of ordering a coffee. But since I am new to the office I don’t remember all the extensions. So I open my desk to take out the list my boss had given me. And then suddenly, I saw a cell phone, a nokia 2600 model.. I took it out.
“Today is 26th april. “I said it aloud, to my amazement.
Its raining outside the glass walls of my office.
I LOVE RAIN.
I heard someone say this. I look back at nothing but the closed glass door of my chamber. And suddenly it all started coming back to me.

Love still wasn't dead!!

Reasons For Love!

Why does love happen?? Always for a reason..Sometimes, its the closeness that you enjoy..sometimes its the other person's company...sometimes..its all about how they make you feel..Sometimes..you just are attracted..sometimes..their looks...

But there is always one time..when its without a reason..they may not be that c;lose to you..you might not really enjoy their their company..they might make you feel bad..at times too...and they might not look like Salman Khan..

but you love them...just for who they are..no strings attached..no expectations..no returns...no gain..no loss...just a feeling..

a feeling that stays..no matter how much you try to push it to the back of your mind..it stays...in the subconscious...

You might not even remember why you love them..you just do..all you know is your heart flutters when you see them..and your lips turn into a big smile...when you think about them...and talking about them..makes you feel on the top of the world..

you tell their story to the world..keeping them anonymous...coz you are afraid of letting that feeling go...

Have you felt it??I have..its amazing..
if you havent..open your heart to this possibility...

"Its better to have loved and lost..than to never have loved at all"

Confessions of an angry heart!

You know what, as long as I remember,...I have cherished you..

I have protected you..
I have loved you..
I have prayed for you..for happiness..
You were a part of my prayers..
even when I asked Allah for my happiness, it went through you..

Even when you betrayed me first time, I convinced my heart, it wasn't you who did this..It was an innocent heart who just wandered into wilderness,,
I FORGAVE YOU.

When you did the same second time, I thought, its okay..its your innocent heart, you will know better soon..
I FORGAVE YOU.

Then it happened again...and again..and again...and everytime it happened it created a hole in my heart...with every passing betrayal, a part of me wanted you to suffer..i wanted you to feel what you made me feel...
LOST
LORN
ANGRY
HELPLESS
BETRAYED
But that has all changed now...
I dont care what you feel..I dont care if you suffer..I dont care if u feel helpless and lost..

I have stopped praying for you..my happiness doesnt involve you anymore..

That is my ULTIMATE revenge on you!!

The unsaid words!

Poem 1

Kuch baaten ankahi rehne do..

Kuch baaten ansuni rehne do..

Sab baaten dil ki keh di agar phr baqi kya reh jaayega??

Sab baaten us ki sun li agar phr baqi kya reh jaayega??

Ik bojhal beqali rehne do..

Ik rangeen anbani duniya par..

Ik khidki adhkhuli rehne do..

Love z about leaving it unsaid….