Moments Updated!

When you have an amazing start to your day..
when you get unexpected calls..
when you know, that you might not have million friends, but those you have are "the Keepers"..
When you feel, wanted by people around you..
When you know, that you have people who are praying for your well being, every moment..
When you know, that you have countless blessings, in the form of your lovely family..
When your sister sends you flowers, from far away..
When you receive Love from a far away land..
When your colleagues surprise you, by announcing your birthday, in the middle of a conference..
When you see your friend, passing a naughty smile..
When things are damn random..and damn unplanned..

That's when you know, that even though you might not have everything..but you did something right..
Something hauntingly beautiful..
Something... to make your LORD happy..

Moments!

Since last one week, I was looking for inspiration..something to write about...many times I picked up my phone, started typing something or the other..but nothing felt right..

Fynally today I took a long deep breath, and decide to finally write something..
Moments..yes thats what I wanna write about..
Moments that just happen..
moments that you never plan..
moments when you laugh so loud that you can hear it..even after it has passed..
Moments..that make you cry and laugh at same time..
moments..when you see someones face..and tears come to your eyes..juz coz you love them so much..
moments..when you realise..you have so many people who love you..
Moments..when you just cant believe how many blessing you have..even though you are a grave sinner..
Moments..when your fantasy becomes reality..
Moments..when reality is so beautiful, that you dnt even think of fantasy..

I had so many such moments yesterday..they were all full of love, surprises, memories..fun..friendship..
They all made my birthday special..in one way or the other..
And most of all..I have a collection of moments..to remember...

XoXo 

Nashee

Sirf tum!

कभी कभी मैं सोचती हूँ, क्यों ज़िन्दगी इतनी मुशकील सी हो गयी है। तम्हारे साथ गुज़ारे लम्हे क्यों मुझे परेशां करते हैं। सोचते सोचते ट्रेन का वो सफ़र याद आता है जिसमें मैं और तुम हसते हस्ते रो पड़े थे। जिसमें वो ग़ज़ल सुनते सुनते हमारा सफ़र कब कटा पता ही नहीं चला।
अजीब सी ख्वाहिशें हैं, हर करवट बदल सी जाती हैं। कभी तुम्हारा साथ, कभी तुम्हारी बातें और कभी तुम।
मौसम की तरह तुम्हारा बदलना, हस्ते हस्ते गुस्सा हो जाना, अपनी बातों से खुद ही पलट जाना, इन सब बातों की आदत से हो गयी है।
तनहा चलते चलते पलट जाती हु मैं जैसे तुमने आवाज़ दी हो, पलट के देखती हु तो सिर्फ तन्हाई दिखती है।
क्यों, आखिर क्यों ज़िन्दगी इतनी खली हो गयी है। और क्यों कोई तुम जैसा नहीं मिलता?

हाँ। आज मान लिया मैंने, मोहब्बत ही गयी है तुमसे..सिर्फ तुमसे :)

XoXo
Nashee

The end of The Road

Journey of life, starts at one end and ends at another end. And the traveller can see the end provided he/she keeps his/her eyes open.

But we tend to just see the crowd, the people, the disturbances, the small kaccha roads that are actually cuts, that juz make the journey longer. And we forget, that no matter what road we take, no matter how much we try to prolomg our journey, the end is certain and decided. We dont prolong our journey, we just take a even shorter road.

And when you realise that, that is when you actually bow down to God. You pray for success, not juz on this road, but the road hereafter. You pray for your fellow travellers. You pray for your loved ones. You pray for those who have already crossed the line from here to the after world. You pray for those who will come after you.

And that is when you actually prolomg your journey. That is when you find solace.
That is when you see the end of the road!

XoXo

Nashee

Scared!

You have scared me. From the first day we have been together, all you have done is scare me.
You scared me, when you asked me out.
You scared me, when you called me and asked me to come on my balcony, and you had a rose in your hand.
You scared me, when we sat on the stairs of our canteen, and you left that last piece of tikki for me.
You scared me, when you held my hand for the first time in college corridors.
You scared me, when we went for that pizza I was craving for.
You scared me, when just to make me smile, you pretended that you didnt know how to use fork and knife.
You scared me, when you kissed me on my nose, and told me I had a small nose ;)
You scared me, when you were persistent about having me in your life, even when I wanted to leave you.
You scared me, when you tolerated all my tantrums and mood swings.
You scared me to death when you said you loved me. And you have scared me everyday since.
You scared me, when you said I was beautiful, on my worst days.
And last night, when you asked me to marry you, i was scared the most.

Never would hav anyone loved being scared that much.
But

I DO!

#totAllyfictioNAl

Dark Love!

"The moment I saw you, I knew you were mine. The way you bent your head, when you talked to me. The way your eyes were piercing my heart and mind. I knew, in that moment, that I can be no one's but yours."

"And you are mine. Every breath, every smile, hell...Every DNA of yours is mine. And dont you dare think or say or imply otherwise. I LoVE YoU with all my heart. I have given you every thing of my life. I have written your name, on each breath I take. I am wholly yours. And i intend to make you mine. Each drop of my blood is for you. Dont you dare doubt me. Because I will prove it to you. I will drain my body of blood, untill you see..untill you believe me. And untill you say yes to marry me. And untill you spend the end of eternity with me. We will be togeder forever."- She said.

He laughed and turned around, and went away.
Next morning, he read it in newspaper.

"CRAZY WOMAN SLITS HER THROAT, AFTER SUPPOSEDLY THE LOVE OF HER LIFE LEFT HER!"

XoXo
Nashee

The Science of Love!

What is Love?
When we meet someone, our brain sends out signals, hormones, and we decide that we like that person.
But are we really sure that its d person, that causes the hormonal rush?
We fall in love many times in our short life. Sometimes it goes thru, sometimes it duznt.
How is it that many people cause the same rush?
Is it an individual thing? Or is it an idea?
I personally feel love for someone, at various times. I may feel detached to the same person, and in just another moment, I might feel love for that person. So, its perhaps an idea in my mind. Whenever and whoever fits my imagination of the perfect Love. I feel love, for that person.

Research suggests that, we tend to be in relationship with those who fit more than 70% into our mind's criteria.
Crazy isnt it?
But beautiful and hopeful at the same time.

HE doesnt love you back..dnt worry, someone else will fit into the criteria you have subconciously set for yourself.

Juz keep your mind open!

XoXo
Nashee

Goodbye 2016-RIP

Well!
Its time to say goodbye to "2016" and many have paid their respects..I thought I should too..

This I year I lost..my grandfather..I lost my cousin brother..I lost a friend..This year..my engagement fell through..this year I got frustrated so damn much..that I even forgot the most important day of life..

This year has given to me..nothing but experiences..each one of them..adding to my eagerness..for this to end..

This year gave me..fear..anger..jealousy..frustration..

But also gave me perspective..I now know..for sure what I want..I know, what really  matters..I know how to deal with things..

No matter what hardships I went through..I emerged a better person..a stronger person..

All in all I wish to say thanks to this year..may it rest in peace.. ;-)

XoXo
Nashee

The Unrequited Love -2.0

Hum ek baar jeete hain, ek baar marte hain, shadi bhi ek hi baar hoti hai..aur pyar.......pyar bhi ek hi baar hota hai..

That one time love, stays forever..etched in you heart..

it has..in mine..

it is like a carving on stone, it cant be rubbed off..it just cant..I have tried, like million of times..it hides, for sometym, and then comes crawling back into my life..

They say LoVe HuRts..mine duznt..it helps me breathe..it helps me forget everything..all the pain..all the sorrow in the world..

its like a fresh breeze of an autumn morning..
Like a cozy blanket in a winter evening.
Like a cold shower in summer noon..
Like a rain..in drought..

Its Love...and I want to thank my love..for this gift..that he duznt even know, he has given me..

Yes..that is the beauty of unrequited love..its there..no body knows...except you...its a SECRET..juz yours to keep..

So keep breathing. And keep Loving..not evryone has this blessing!

The Friend

Walking down the road, she realised what she has done. How could she let it happen? How could she let him touch her? It was her fault. She shudnt have said yes to the movie. She said YES. She went with him to the movies. She had that coffee before the movie. And that is why it happened. That is why he did that to her. She shud hav said NO to the ride in his car. She shud have known better. But he was a friend. Do friends do that, what he did to her?

Crying her eyes out, the 17 year old girl, reached a medical store and bought rat killer!

XoXo
Nashee

For The Society

"Hey! I Love You. And I wanna marry you"
Her world was filled with light..she wanted to hear these words. She felt the truest of happiness. Her mind started wandering..
" i will wear a traditional lehenga, u know the one with kiran bordered dupatta"- she told her friends
" I will get gharara from that boutique, make-up from here and jwellery from there"
From decorations to menu to venue...she planned everything..the planning that otherwise takes months..she did it in moments..that excited she was.. she could not stop smiling.
She was going to marry the love of her life..

10 Years Later-
" Jaan I will marry you, I promise..I Love You so much. Thanks for waiting for me, what would I do without you"

She fought the society, fought her family and most of her fought with herself, She wanted a traditional life and that included a wedding. She has been waiting.
" Its worth it, she told herself."

Wedding Day-
" Congrats honey, finally your day is here"
Her friends were excited, family was happy and society...well the society was dancing, just like at any other wedding.

But her world was quite...she coudnt hear the music on the DJ. She couldnt hear the laughter..She couldnt feel her traditional lehenga..she coudnt enjoy the decorations.

She was getting married- for the society.

The wait was enough!

XoXo
Nashee

Beautiful soul!

Every time I look at you..I see some one beautiful..someone with a beautiful soul..someone who I can admire and love at the same time..someone who i want to see all the time..someone with whom I can sit for hours..and not talk..n still be happy an fulfilled..someone with whom I can appreciate the silence..someone who has touched my soul..someone who has brought me closer to my Lord..someone who I am certain..will be cherished by me..no matter what fate writes in for me..everytime..every single time..I look at you..I just want to look at you..and thats it!!
XoXo
Nashee

Thankful

Last night I woke up at a voice..in the middle of the night..lying in my cozy bed, I heard it say..
" why are you still asleep? Dont you have to study??"
I said-" no..who cares about studies, when my life is so messed up? I am overweight, my parents are away from me, i hate my room, i dnt hav any real frenz, all my frenz hav achieved so much in life and i am struggling to appear in a bloody exam, is that life?? Is that how it is supposed to be??

The voice said," are you in syria where children and parents are watchng each oder take their last breath??
Are you aware of the conditions that gazans are living in?
Are you aware how many dreams have been crushed?
Did you see the pain in the child's eye, when he saw other children go to school? Did you see that old man on the road, who is suffring frm hypothermia and hasnt had a bite to eat since 3 days?
Did you see that woman, who was raped, and left on the street to die?
Did you see that man, who works his ass off to get a piece of bread at the end of the day?

And most of all, do you see them complaining?? They are all still thanking their God for what they have! The woman is thanking Allah that she is still breathing!
That kid is hoping to be a lawyer some day!
That man is smiling that he has clothes to wear! "

My hands went numb, legs cudnt move and i woke up.. tears falling down my eyes..i was asleep on my bed..I could hear the sound of the room heater..i could feel the warmth of my blanket..

And it took me fraction of seconds to get up...climb out of my bed and stand in front of Allah, thanking for all that he has given me..without asking, without expectng anythng in return..

I was lucky..I am lucky!

Alhamdulillah!

XoXo
Nashee